Good-Bye Grandma

Well it finally happened. My Grandma Sarah finally passed away. October 3, 2009 she took her last breath, and with a single tear in her eyes, with my brother at her side, she went to the other side.

My Grandma was battling Cancer, which eventually took over her whole entire body. I did get to say my final good-bye to her, at her house on the Tuesday before she passed away. Thinking to myself, she's gonna live forever! Was i wrong! I felt at peace with all that I had to say, and I made sure to tell her that I loved her very much, as I always did when I talked to her. The moment I left her house, I knew that would be the last time I would see her. I'm glad she is now at peace, and gone to the heaven's above. Met at the pearly gates (do they really exist?) by my grandpa, who has waited now 13 years to see her again. Now, they both can watch over all of us.

Yesterday was the funeral. Rod and I had got to the Church, and I almost had a freak out! I signed the guest book, and then someone moved and I saw the blue casket. I couldn't look, I just couldn't. I didn't want that to be the last image in my thoughts of her. So I grabbed Rod, and away we went and took our seats. I don't remember much, I do know that I cried. We then all went to the gravesite. I stood at the back with Rod and my dad. I really feel for my dad... So much to deal with... But him and I both know, that Grandma is at peace, and doesn't have to deal with any of it anymore. It was blistering cold out, with the snow flying... they played Amazing Grace, and crap did I cry! I gave my dad a big hug, and he went his way, and Rod and I went home.

I was so exhausted by the time I got home, that Rod tucked me into bed, so I could have a nap. Yes, I needed that nap. I woke up at 5pm, asking him what was for dinner. He made me chicken soup, which turned out to be a stew and his Naan's tea biscuits. Oh my it was such a good dinner. We even watched two movies, Fast and Furious - it was awesome. Then we watched Crocodile Dundee in Los Angeles. OMG! it was so lame, but it was well enjoyed. Both movies were enjoyed with us cuddled on the couch eating our popcorn with shredded cheese on it. Oh so yum!

Death, it's scary. I'm still not sure about it. Do I believe in the other side? I guess I do, and well there is a part of me that doesn't. Last year when my dad had his heart-attack, he said that he saw the other side, that it was beautiful and peaceful. So maybe there is hope for me out there to still believe.

Well, I'm at work... nothing really to do, but I'm making my stuff last. Had a good lunch, and well there is only 1 hour left to go then it's home time. Rod and I gotta get the basement cleaned and stuff put away, all before he leaves for 6 months.

It's gonna be hard, but I will get through it, since I have a great group of friends. I'll get through it all!

Time to go! Until next time!

Lisa